Acting to Real Life

8 months ago By Yogi Anoop

   For many years, I didn't realize that I was acting. Those who act know that it is their trade; at least, after their performance, they try to live a real life. But I never realized that I had become entangled in the maze of making my entire life an act. I was trying to find happiness in that performance.

Through acting, I was trying to understand myself, thinking that I am this, I am that, I am present in the entire universe, I am eternal, and so on. I never tried to understand who I truly am, but instead, I kept acting as someone I am not. For many years, what I considered as spiritual practice was merely an act.

The truth is, I need to understand who I really am, and acting has no place in this understanding! The more this acting increases, the more the confusion about oneself increases. This is because you are trying to become something you are not. You are creating illusions to understand your true nature while neglecting who you really are. This also proves that we are experts at ignoring the closest elements to us. Even our eyes do not see themselves; they easily see others' eyes.

A doctor does not see his own organs but dissects others by looking at theirs. It is the nature of the senses to see others more than themselves. Possibly, this nature and habit also affect the mind, and ultimately, the mind joins forces with the senses to create havoc.

However, my spirituality teaches me to break the connection between the mind and the senses for a while, and by separating the mind from the senses, focus on those elements that are invisible but fully existent. For example, "I" am invisible to myself, but I am the observer of that invisibility. I am fully existent. This is my true nature.

To reach this understanding, I had to go through numerous experiences and challenges. I had to strip away layers of pretense and superficiality, enduring the discomfort of confronting my illusions. It was a journey of peeling back the false identities I had adopted, revealing the core of my being. In this process, I realized that true contentment and peace come from recognizing and embracing my true self, not from the roles I had been playing.

In essence, acting was a mask that kept me from my true self. It took a profound shift in awareness to break free from this cycle and begin to live authentically. Now, I strive to live with a deeper understanding of my true nature, beyond the confines of performance, in the realm of genuine existence.

Book An Appointment